Yeah, I keep in touch. I experienced some deprivation as a kid, so as an adult, I pursue interests with glee. Maybe even to my detriment, but overall I think it’s a positive thing to rush toward interesting things.

The flip side is, really draining sometimes, and I push it away in favour of gratification. Could also be a sign of an imbalance in life, if recovering from work-based responsibility doesn’t happen well enough, and it intereferes with personal life responsibilites.

I have two Hori sticks, the RAP4 (modded) and fighting edge unmodded.

Both work great on pc and playstation. Hori at least had a switch stick, but not sure if any more. It was based on the RAP, which is a fine stick, even out of the box.

If you don’t have budget constraints, ordering a custom could work too, since you could get it to work on the switch and ps. I don’t think many sticks support both out of the box.

If you can leave the switch out, Qanba is real nice. Razer sticks are pretty cool too, very heavy and boxy, but I like that. And Hori is a bit more budget friendly.

The Nacon stick with Sanwa parts seems like a good deal too.

There a youtube channel and a steam curator called Mortismal Gaming who loves CRPGs. Their shtick is also completing games at 100% before popping a review, and they are churning out new material at an amazing pace. Check it out for some decent coverage on the genre.

As for a maybe hidden gem, Age of Decadence looks pretty good. I have not played it yet, but the genre seems to match, and the premise is solid.

Expedition Rome is well appreciated too, even if it leans more toward tactical battles.

Just bought a wollen cape for those crispy autumn mornings. It’s nice to lounge around in, but maybe I’ll summon the courage to take it out too.

Kinda feels like a trenchcoat in function, but lighter and with a hood to boot.

If you care about fashion, everything will go out of style every now and then. If you like cargo shorts, wear them. There’s no reason to cater to someone elses gatekeeping. If you think that they don’t fit your look, then that’s a completely different issue.

They are very handy too in all the right ways.

Driving people out because of their past isn’t fruitful. Someone used to have bigoted views but something made them change their mind, and they pushed hard enough to reform their life? Sounds like they wanted it, and are probably a changed person.

I know a few people like this. They help others leave similar situations. Great people doing important work.

I guess when I ran into Aesop Rock, and got absolutely infatuated? I don’t do a lot of rap, so his stuff hitting so damn hard was a surprise.

I remember a few of the other times. Mostly it has taken the right moment, the right mindset and the right artist. A dark autumn evening and a walk in a park for Dark Sanctuary, falling asleep to SunnO))) and waking up to it was a mindblowing experience.

Carpenter Bruts album Trilogy opened up electronic music for me, and Crypt of the Necrodancers soundtrack cemented it.

Oh wow, it’s still going? I really thought the game got shut down! It’s a cool shooter, definitely fun to mess around in.

An absolute wannabe authoritarian brute. The institution pushing back against outrage could (and probably already has) lead to a massive Streisand effect.

They have other resources too, about gender identity, finding yourself and finding a community. Do you have an idea on what would make you feel good? If everything were possible, what would you wish to change in your day-to-day life, so that it would feel more comfortable, more like you?

Speaking to different people about how they went through similar life situations could help you maybe find a way for you to explore yourself. Maybe there are safe spaces near where you live, that you could pop in to and talk with some people? Like a LGBTQ-friendly community night or something? Or maybe even using lemmy spaces, reddit or other online spaces to find people who could talk with you about their own processes?

I’m cishet, so my experience will be different, but if it’ll help, I can share it.

I guess take it slowly and explore how self expression makes you feel? There might be a newfound euphoria in trying all the things at the same time, but I’m worried that this might lead to unsafe things, or maybe unsafe people.

Finding yourself is a marathon that can take a whole lifetimes worh of experiences, so take your time. I would suggest finding stuff to read, watch and listen to, that will give you more context to your experiences, maybe even new people to talk to?

I can try to dig up more resources, but I’ll starg with a local one: https://en.seta.fi/lgbti-rights-in-finland-seta/materials/ Seta is a Finnish ngo that works with LGBTQ members of society, providing support, resources and aims to further their position through political influence.

After reading what you’ve written, I want to agree with “you are cis and have aesthetic choices”? I mean that you can identify as masculine, but it’s fine to prefer they/them on certain days and like nail polish and bracelets. Masculity shouldn’t be thought of as being forced to be a certain way or act a certain way to qualify. Sure, some things are more associated wih masculinity, but in the end, you decide how you express yourself, and no-one else. Gender expression should be open to individual choice, same as how you define your gender identity.